Down in the dumpy?

Morning blog readers,

Is it just me, or has this been a long week? I just feel like time is sludging along at a unbearable pace. I think that it must be a symptom of life after exciting show - which makes me realize that I need more shows. I really hope that at some point in my life I will be performing very often. That is what I love to do. So I'm going to let that wish out into the cyber/real world, let God marinate on it, and hopefully it will come to be! I guess if it's meant to be, it will.

In the mean time - I need to find a way to get out of my little 'slump.' I'm feeling a little down. Don't be alarmed, audience. The eternal optimist always resides in me - but I'm just feeling like some of the inertia of moving out here and getting going is slowing down for me. You know, it's probably my doing. I should treat everyday like the first effing day out here. But sometimes you just feel like - seriously - do I have to hustle today? Do I have to write today? Do I have to do anything to do with what I want to do today? Or can I just do absolutely everything else. Or nothing else. I need to be aware of this tiny 'slump' and make sure it doesn't turn into a HUGE slump. That is why it is nice to have a blog, actually. In some ways I feel that it keeps me accountable for my life. No one wants to read the blog of a depressed person who watches reality television and feels sorry that her music career isn't taking off. That's just dumb.

And anyway, who's to say the career isn't taking off? I have booked another gig. I'm getting better everyday. I'm meeting people. I'm writing - but haven't in a few weeks. I'm putting my stuff out there and applying for important gigs with exposure. I'm doing it. But sometimes you just feel feel...sad. I guess you just feel sad. And maybe you can't explain it. Maybe I can't explain it, or maybe it's too personal for a blog, but either way - what do you do when you feel this way? Do you cry? Do you eat ice cream? Do you make art? Do you just sit there with it? Do you ignore the feeling and cover it up with activity? Do you booze? Do you snooze? Do you talk about with friends? Do you pray?

Is it ok to be sad sometimes?

In a society that is on the go 24/7 and on display just as much through social media, cell phones, and New Age spirituality etc. Is there any room in our lives for sadness? Is there any room for a bad day? If you're having one, it means you are not doing what you should be doing - which is getting out there, working, being productive, being happy, taking care of your family, socializing, mixing it up in the big bad world. This is what we value.

I hereby declare this day, "It's alright to cry Day".

And that's exactly what I mean. It's alright to not be your best at every second of every day. It's alright to have feelings. It's alright to have disappointment. And it's ok if you have not reached spiritual enlightenment. You may never get there. And that's alright too. We're only human and sometimes we get tired of trying to be superhuman. It makes sense. Just let it go and cry it out! And I'm not going to tell you to hurry up and feel better!

When I was a kid, my favorite record was called "Free to be You and Me." It was a kids album produced by Marlo Thomas and it had all these wonderful songs and stories about what it's like to be a kid with celebrity voices and a chorus of children on it. Rosey Grier sang a song on the album called "It's alright to cry." It's still one of my favorites - and it is definitely the SONG OF THE DAY.

"It's Alright to Cry" - Rosey Grier from "Free to Be You and Me"

We enjoy warmth because we have been cold.
We appreciate light because we have been in darkness.
By the same token, we can experience joy because we have known sadness.
-David Weatherford


  1. beautiful blast from the past!!!
    down in the dumpy,
    sometimes frumpy,

  2. Great musings on a big topic. One thing I try to do is interrogate the depression. What info do you have for me? What gift have you brought me? It's often the gift of an ego reboot, the chance to shake off some too-small version of myself I've been clutching.
    It would be unnatural, IMO, NOT to reach a time of adjustment after the fantastic frenzy of moving to L.A. and tasting your future. Enjoy the pause!


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