FUN. Who's having it?
I'm not having enough fun lately. Is anybody having a lot of fun? I mean laughing their asses off? Or feeling exhilarated? Or surprised? Or delighted? Or dancing the night away? Is anybody meeting the fun quotient in their lives?
Maybe mine is just abnormally impossible to meet or something. I don't know. Maybe my fun standards are too high. But lately I sort of feel like a whiny adult wishing I was a kid again and could just have some old fashioned fun!
This is what most of my days and nights are spent doing: sleeping, working, thinking, worrying, talking to other adults about life and problems, playing music (because I should), trying to pay bills, watching some stupid tv, and getting into bed thinking about stuff I should have done. Where is the fun in that? Is being a responsible adult really this sucky?
What do adults do to cut loose, to have fun, to let go and live for a bit? So the obvious one, at least for me, is drink. I know that is what a lot of adult humans do to relax, release tension, and have fun. Well...that worked for me for a long time until it became dangerous and not fun anymore. So that's out. AWESOME. ( Side note. Isn't it sad that once our adult selves found alcohol and drugs we forgot how to have fun without them. Like our imaginations stopped. We were having a blast as kids before without anything!) Maybe that's what I'm having, a crisis of the imagination.
So now what? So the next thing that comes to mind is shopping or basic entertainment (concerts, movies, cultural events, etc). Yup, those are fun sometimes! Cool. But those things cost MONEY. Spending money for fun makes life less fun when you're scraping by on a wink and prayer. So that shit is OUT. Neat.
Did I mention I'm living the dream?
What else...there's nature. I love nature. There are some amazing places to to be in nature out here in California. I need to partake more. Maybe that is something I could try. The only problem is that it takes a lot of time to get there and do the things. This is mainly a weekend solution. But I will give it some props.
I need weekday fun, people! I'm an immature 29 year old woman who doesn't drink and is trying to live a responsible life. What does a lady need to do to get some fun over here?
Maybe I could take up card games or something. Anything. Anything to relax my mind and my body for a little while so I can enjoy life for awhile without interfering with it. Simplicity. Relief. A few laughs. These are all things I got after a good buzz. Now I have to create my own buzz, and you know what that feels like? More work!
There must be a solution. Here is one I can think of, Halloween. I love Halloween a lot. I'm actually really looking forward to it. 1. Because I can make up some stupid costume and play pretend for a night = WICKED FUN and 2. Because I'm going to my voice teacher's house to hand out candy to the kids. I really love kids. They make me laugh! I like talking to them and rapping with them and mixing it up. They seriously know how to have fun. IT'S THEIR FREAKING JOB. Kids are professional fun havers. And us adults could learn a lot from them. And I plan to this Halloween. (Another sidenote. I miss the kids from the West End House in Allston where I used to work. They were hilarious and sooo smart! It made work pretty much the best ever. Probably the first time I fit into a 9 to 5 job...cuz I was a lot like them.)
So anyway. The good news is I have my partner in crime arriving tomorrow to distract me from my self pity. Fun will be had organically, I'm sure. Hopefully some pumpkins will be carved and candy corn eaten and laughs laughed.
Ok, I'm done complaining. That's such a lame adult thing to do anyway. It's time to take life a little lighter and have a good time. I mean this is it. This is the only life we've got! If I take it this seriously for one more day, I'm going to quit. So forget it! I can be responsible and still have fun! And I'm not determined to make it happen. I'm just going to let it be.